Hopes and Dreams: Day 30

Day 30: List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.

1. My charming and quick wit.
2. My fun and delightful personality.
3. My ability to handle the booze.
4. My can-do attitude.
5. My kids' awesome baby clothes.
6. My kick-a** scooter.
7. My "doesn't look a day over 30" middle-age body.
8. My pie recipes.
9. My..........boobs?
10. My inability to care about these Hopes and Dreams.

Also, I think I picked March to do this because I thought there were only 30 days in March. So it would work out perfectly. I was, obviously, wrong. There are 31. So, ummm....crap. Fun fact! March 2013 has five Fridays, Saturdays, AND Sundays. Now how often does that happen, eh? Eh? No, really - how often does that happen??

Hopes and Dreams: Day 29

Day 29: What do you think people misunderstand most about you?

Ummmm....Now I see why I stopped doing these when there were only like 2 left (to you the timeline seems seamless (seems seamless? ha!) but it's been WEEKS since I wrote one of these. WEEKS). This one is dumb. DUMB, I SAY! I don't know. My hair? Well, my personality because of my hair. That's a cop-out. "Ooohhh, I'm different - people judge me - oooohhh...." I also have tattoos! Such a rebel.

I don't know. I don't care for this question. I'm ending this now.

TMI Baby Update

So I think I mentioned before that I'd gone off BC. Let me tell you, going off BC is a b*tch. Hormones, man. They screw with you starting in middle school and never. let. you. go. Bah! My back/face totally broke out like a shameful fifteen-year-old's would. Bah! I say.

Now it's gonna get a little awkward. Feel free to leave.

I've already told you I was on the Depo Provera shot. Apparently that can take up to 18 months to wear off. It works by thinning the lining on your uterus? I think? And that can take awhile to get back into baby-making mode. Which is fine - we don't want babies, anyway. And we're back to using condoms.

Now, for me, when Depo starts to wear off, I have this weird, never ending....drizzle...of a period. It's happened to me three times now, because I was never able to freaking get an appointment on time to get the shot. So that's been going on now for...a couple weeks, probably. Well today it became less of a drizzle and more of a "Oh, hey - you have reproductive organs!" kind of situation. Which probably explains why I've been fantasizing about having a baby? NO, SARAH! No babies for at least two more years!

Anyway, that's all I got. Still no babies. My vagina's being weird. Carry on with your day.

Hopes and Dreams: Day 28

Day 28: What is your love language?

Oh, oh - I know this one! (If you have no idea what this means, go here.) Mine were Quality Time and Physical Touch...let me retake it and see if they've changed!

BaZING! Still the same! I think Receiving Gifts might have moved up. I don't really remember anymore. Words of Affirmation has always been my lowest. And it's Mr. T's #1. Which is one of the issues with our marriage. lol! Ah, well...working on it!

Hopes and Dreams: Day 27

Day 27: What is your favorite part of your body and why?

I guess I'll say my hair? I have a good natural color, and my hair has a great texture. I don't have to do anything too special and it's fairly smooth and shiny. It's also the quickest and easiest way to alter your appearance. Cut it, bleach it, dye it, curl it, pull it back, put it up, add accessories...the possibilities are endless! I hated my hair (cuts) for a long time, but I've had a lot of fun with it the past few years. I've dyed it every color under the sun, almost, and had lots of fun cuts. It's also the only part of your body that doesn't gain weight. 8P

Hopes and Dreams: Day 26

Day 26: What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?

Five day work weeks. Just think about it! Four days a week, tack on an extra couple of hours each day. Three day weekends! One less day of commuting! Think of all the gas we'd save! All the free time we'd have! What do you honestly do on weekdays when you get off work? NOTHING. Because you have to go to bed so soon! At the very least, let me work from home one day a week. 8P

My Life According to...Cake. 8}

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat song titles. Re-post as "My Life According to (BAND NAME)"

Pick Your Artist:
Cake - I'm using this list.

Are you a male or female?
"She'll Hang the Baskets"

There are several great songs for dudes: "Italian Guy" and "Mustached Man" especially. There were only two that had "she" in them - "She'll Hang the Baskets" and "She'll Come Back to Me". I liked this video better. There are also a few songs that are just women's names: "Daria" and "Jolene" are two that I saw. I'm not sure that Cake has any official videos?

Describe yourself:
"Sick of You"

This is pretty accurate, I think. I get pissed off reaaaaaally easily, and have a really hard letting go of things once you piss me off. I saw an e-card once that said something about how once someone annoys you, everything they do is annoying (I can't remember exactly what it said - I tried searching and couldn't find it easily, so 8P). That is definitely me. Once you start to get under my skin it become a spiral until I hate hate hate you. I'm working on not doing this, because it makes me hate my friends and that's sad.

How do you feel:
"Got to Move"

By the end of my work day I'm like "OMG, GOTTA GET OUTTA DIS CUBE!!" I sit in my car for about an hour to get to work, sit in my cubicle for around four hours until lunch, sit in the break room for an hour during lunch, four more hours at my cubicle after lunch, then another hour in the car to get home. My butt gets so upset with me. It's all "wtf, mate - I'm tired of being abused, let's stand for awhile, mmkay??"

Describe where you currently live:
"Federal Funding"

I also really wanted to use "Mexico", but this one is at least kind of accurate. We got a grant to cover our down payment on our house. So yay, government funding!! Also, this is an official video for Cake! I had to use it. 8}

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
"Mexico"

Yay, I get to use "Mexico"! I'm not reading ahead on these, so I can't strategize my song choices. It's more fun that way. And I'm lazy. Couple of other songs I thougth about using: "The Distance" and "Long Time".

Your favorite form of transportation:
"Stickshifts and Safetybelts"

I get to use this song!! I was hoping I would. 8D It's one of my favorite Cake songs, and we played it at our wedding. I also thought about using "Race Car Ya-Yas" or "No Wheels" but I was afraid I wouldn't get another chance to use this one if I didn't take this opportunity. Another song was "Easy to Crash" but I think that sent the wrong message.

Your best friend is:
"Strangers in the Night"

I was going to say the people in my dreams are my best friends (bit of a stretch, but you gotta work with the songs the band gives you...) but this song is actually applicable, because Miss C lives IN MY HOUSE and I never see her. She works 3rd shift, so she's left for work by the time I get home in the evening and is holed up in her room when I wake up in the morning. Even if I woke up early enough to give myself time to do anything other than get ready in a panic and rush out the door. lol I guess I could've also used "Never There", but that makes it sound like she's no there for me, which she is! She's just...there and asleep. 8} Oh Oh Oh - I also could've done "Friend is a Four-Letter Word"!

Your favorite color is:
"Cool Blue Reason"

They also have "Pretty Pink Ribbon" "Ruby, Don't Take Your Love to Town" and "Ruby Sees All". But blue is closest to my favorite color - green.

What's the weather like:
"It's Coming Down"

I was hoping there'd be a weather one!! We had cray cray rain yesterday. Followed immediately by hail. Then sunshine. >.< And today it was SNOWING! Yay, Tennessee weather! I almost put "The Winter", but I don't want the weather to think it's okay to be this cold at the end of March.

Favorite time of day:
"When You Sleep"

Thought about putting "What's Now Is Now" and being all "Live in the moment!" or "YOLO" but...I really like sleeping. 8}

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
"Rock and Roll Lifestyle"

I was going to use "Italian Leather Sofa" and say I'd have a super awesome talk show and interview famous people on my Italian leather sofa...then I realized it meant real life, not fantasy life. Oh, well. Rock and Roll, baby - rock. and. roll.

What is life to you:
"Sad Songs and Waltzes"

Little melodramatic, but I really like this song. And I like to complain about my FWP on this blog, so I might as well play it up a little more. 8} And in that vein, the automatic toilet flushers they installed at work have become my arch-enemies. I hate them with a burning passion.

Your current relationship:
"Love You Madly"

I almost went with "Haze of Love" but this one won out. I just typed "one one". Stupid English! Side note, this is the most bizarre music video I've ever seen. wtf, Cake? wtf. Of course, I also found the Cake VEVO. Looks like they have 4 music videos and 11 "Live on Letterman" videos. w.t.f. Cake?!

Breaking up:
"I Will Survive"

"Let Me Go" "Friend is a Four-Letter Word" "Sick of You" (so perfect, but already used!) "She'll Come Back to Me" - lots of excellent break-up songs.

Looking for:
"Short Skirt/Long Jacket"

I do need a nice jacket. And I do like short skirts. 8} I love this song and I love this video!! Watch this one, guys!!

Wouldn’t mind:
"Open Book"

I've started reading The Hunger Games again. I'm currently on Mockingjay (the 3rd one). It's sitting here, right beside me....and I would love to be reading it right now, instead of what I should be doing.

Your fear:
"I Bombed Korea"

I feel like a nuclear war with North Korea is more likely to happen now than it was in the past. So that's kind of scary. WWIII and all that jazz.

What is the best advice you have to give:
"Jesus Wrote a Blank Check"

I'm a Christian. I think you should be one, too. I'm bad at this.

If you could change your name, you would change it to:
"Daria"

Why not? It's a pretty cool name. I liked that cartoon in the 90s. Her name was Daria, right? Maybe not, I dunno. Also, I really enjoy this song. Okay, so I like all of Cake's music. So sue me. 8P

Thought for the Day:
"Is This Love?"

Yeah, make sure the person you're with/obsessing over is actually worth your time.

How I would like to die:
"Carbon Monoxide"

Why not?

My motto:
"Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps"

Make no commitments!! 8D

Well....that took a hot minute. But I finished! Answer your favorite two or three down in the comments? You don't even have to post YouTube links! Unless you want to.

Hopes and Dreams: Day 25

Day 25: If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?

I kind of regret starting this now. Only 5 more days, Mrs. Wilson - stay strong! But geeze...some of these are dumb. I don't really care to meet any historical figures. They'd probably smell. Do you know how bad hygiene was back then? "When?" you may ask. Does it matter?? Go back 100 years and smell what people smelled like. No, thank you. Plus, the only historical people anyone remembers are really smart. Or famous. Either way, I have nothing to talk about with them. Plus, have you seen me? Go back too far in time and I'll just freak them the f out. Pants! Tattoos! Weird hair! Contact lenses! Granted, they probably wouldn't see those...but what if it came up?? Or I had my cell phone out?! They'd flip. Plus it would totally alter history. No, thank you, I say. I won't be the one to accidentally cause Hitler to be even worse. But I would like a steak, please. With potatoes and steamed vegetables. That are actually cooked all the way through this time, and not still crunchy like the last time I went to Applebee's.

Hopes and Dreams: Day 24

Day 24: Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.

Ummm.... Let's see. I'm about a decade younger than my to siblings. So I was kind of an only child, in a way. They were both away at school before I was even 10. So my memories of living with them are a bit fuzzy. Now that I'm an adult and my sister is also an adult (wow!) we're a lot closer than we used to be. My brother was the oldest (still is, actually...) so he was almost a parent to me, in a way. So we still kind of have that dynamic. He's like a cool, younger dad. lol! I wish he lived closer because I never get to see him. Of course, my sister lives in the same town and I never get to see her, either! As far as my parents go...I'm definitely still their baby girl. But I'm also an adult, so that's been an interesting transition. What with the tattoos and the alcohols and the...whatever else I do to stress them out - cleavage showing!! Yup, everything's changed while managing to stay exactly the same. Isn't that how all families are?

Hopes and Dreams: Day 23

Day 23: List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them.

omg, really guys? Hobbies? I don't have hobbies... Blah!

1. Facebook/Google Reader. Yes, this is totally a hobby. I spend a good portion of my life doing it. I find interesting things via my subscriptions and I post them on FB. I wish I could make a living doing it. Easy money!
2. Ummm...reading. I read a lot. If you'll notice my Goodreads widget over to the right somewhere...I'm doing the 2013 Reading Challenge and attempting to read 100 books. I tried this last year, but didn't start until around March/April so I failed. This year I'm ahead!! Since I'm post-dating this I can't say for sure where I'll be when it get published. But at the time of me typing these words, I'm 2 books ahead of schedule. Go me!
3. I guess another hobby I've picked up recently is DIY. Seems like that's all I talk about these days! But it's fun. 8P I like that I can make things more cheaply than I can buy them, and I can say "I made this. Aren't I awesome??"
4. Huh...two more hobbies... I used to play video games, but haven't in awhile. So that doesn't count. Gah - I don't know what else I do outside of the three things I mentioned! Other than boring stuff like work and eating. I guess I could say blogging? Yes! Blogging is a hobby I have. Go me with my blog self. 8P
5. Stressing my parents out. This isn't a hobby I enjoy, but it's something I do fairly regularly. At least more so than my siblings. Booze, cleavage, tattoos...is there no end to the naughty ways of Mrs. Wilson?!?

Hopes and Dreams: Day 22

Day 22: Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?

5 years:
I will be 29 years old. So I should have a kid, maybe two. In the process of adopting a 2nd/3rd. I would be okay if I were still at this same job. Hopefully with five years of raises under me. ;) Umm...honestly, other than that all I got for you is a big old *shrug.

10 years:
I will be 34 years old. Ah!! Not going to say "so old" because it's going to be here before I know it. All my kids will be in school, smart little buggers that they are. Hopefully by then Mr. T will have an established shop of his own and we'll be making a profit!

15 years:
I will be 39!!! Halfway to retirement. 8} Maybe by then I'll be able to work from home a lot (hopefully before then, but I'm trying to not assume too much, so it's more exciting when it finally happens) so I can help Mr. T with his shop and be around for my kids. Coolest mom in the PTA.

Hopes and Dreams: Day 21

Day 21: If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?

Dude. Flying. E'erytime. This will never not be flying, if you ask me. FLYING WOULD BE THE COOLEST THING EVER. I would fly everywhere. EVERYwhere. So much fun!

Hopes and Dreams: Day 20

Day 20: Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.

1. Man...I remember stupid stuff. Like...there was this one place in our kindergarten class that everyone wanted to sleep in during nap time. It was back behind this screen, on a bench. It was like your own little private cubby hole. And then one day this girl peed back there, and no one ever used it again.
2. I went horseback riding with one of my best friends when we were in middle school. Midway down the trail my horse just stopped. I was like "wtf?" except my sensitive mind would have never even thought the letter 'f', much less the word "f*ck" - even if the 'u' was left out. Then, out of the corner of my eye I see the horse's hind leg creepin....it comes up, and scratches the horse's ear! Like a dog does! It was crazy! My friend that was with me later died in a car accident, so I'm not 100% sure if this is a real memory. I have no one to corroborate with. Also, I'm really sad that she passed away. That really really really sucked.
3. There was this guy I had a crush on...I ended up liking him from 4th grade through 8th grade. I got over it in high school because he started getting really...weird. (Turns out he's gay.) He gave me a note in the 4th grade, asking if I liked him. I said "maybe" and it was never brought up again. I held on to that note...for an awkward amount of time. Not that I still have it, but I probably held onto it for a couple years, at least.

I don't know that any of those were "significant" other than for the fact that I remember them. And they were the first three that popped in my head. There is also the time my sister told me she could tell time by the sun, then held her arm up to "measure" (a.k.a. look at her wristwatch) and gave me the exact time, to the minute. I ran into Mom and Dad's room and it blew my mind that she was right!! Ummm...the first time I ever rode the horse that may or may not have scratched its ear? She bucked me off. In Kindergarten, when you lost your first tooth you got this awesome little goody bag of stuff. I didn't lose my first tooth until the summer after Kindergarten. I thought my dad's middle name was "Partin" because his parents had him before they were married (his mom's maiden name is Partin). My brother was old enough that he could drive me to school, and I made him walk up the sidewalk with me instead of staying in the car. Me and a couple of my friends got in big trouble in the 3rd grade because we pinched people. Every recess. We'd just...pinch people. Oh oh oh! My teacher made us learn the Macarena as a class. We performed it in the hallway and they took pictures for the yearbook.

I've lost all my yearbooks from elementary school....I need to find those!!

Hopes and Dreams: Day 19

Day 19: If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?

Believe it or not, I'm still totally in love with my house. I would get rid of my neighbors and their stupid barking dogs...but I'm digging my actual house. And I think TN is a pretty cool place to live. Four seasons every year...no extreme weather, other than the occasional tornado...you can drive to a beach in less than a day. And as much as the US sucks, I don't think I'd really want to live in another country.

So, yeah - make my neighbors move, tear down their house and turn it into a bigger yard for me, and my house is perfection. 8}

Hopes and Dreams: Day 18

Day 18: What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?

Hmmm... Nothing super terrible has happened to me.

I dated douchebag for about a year, and he was pretty terrible. He was just...an idiot. He told me we might "accidentally" have sex one night, that he would more than likely cheat on me and I had to be okay with that, he was happy when he graduated while I was still in school so he wouldn't have to go to church with me for two years (before we got married, I suppose). He also talked about his ex a lot (they had been engaged). He had a ton of pictures of her that he wouldn't throw out (including some porn on his computer). When I finally did break up with him he took back everything he had given me, including his old wireless router he had given me when he bought a nicer one and the PSP he bought me. He had originally given me his old PSP when he bought a new one. Then he dropped it and broke it and insisted on buying me a brand new one, even though I told him not to. And then, since one of the reasons I broke it off was because of the whole "don't like church" thing, he got baptized by my college minister at my church to try and get me back. I mean....wtf?

The only other thing that still leaves a bitter taste in my mouth is what my cousin did regarding some pictures of me she saw online. If you know the story, good for you. If you don't...you can dig through the archives or just not worry about it.

Oh oh oh - and MC!


Actually - I don't think I've forgiven any of these people. I'm still pretty bitter. I have this app called Fig and you list things you need to do, and how often you need to do them. Like...drink water 8x per day. Exercise 4x per week. And so on. One of mine is actually "release my resentments" and much like my "avoid touching my face" goal...it's more of a reminder. I never actually go "Oh, yes - resentments released!" And 90% of the time when I see the "avoid touching my face"....I'm actually touching my face. It is a useful little app, though. Like just now when I pulled it up to make sure I phrased those two correctly I saw that I hadn't taken my vitamin yet today, so I did that. Woo, Fig!! Ooohh...I'm also due to "soak in a bath".

Hopes and Dreams: Day 17

Day 17: What is the thing you most wish you were great at?

Gah....one thing? I don't have one thing I want to be great at. I just want to be great at something! I guess I'll say "crafting". Is that too vague? I just want to be successful when I try to DIY something. So far I've done alright, so maybe I already am "great" at this... I guess I want to be happy with the results. Like the "est. 2010" string art I made - it looks pretty good, but all I can see is the imperfections. I wish I had done better. But! Oh, well. It still looks cool. Go me. 8}

Or singing. I wish I could be a great singer.

Hopes and Dreams: Day 16

Day 16: What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?

1. Learning to walk, talk, and use the toilet. Those are super important, guys.
2. Getting my BS and MS in computer science. I don't even like computer science.
3. Tricking Mr. T into marrying me.
4. Not getting knocked up in the first 2.5 years of our marriage. Another 2.5 to go!
5. Getting a sweet job right after graduation. Woot, woot!

Talk Dirty To Me...

So Mr. T and I are on a Dave Ramsey budget now. It's hard. March was our first month doing it, and did I mention how freaking hard it is? When you don't think about how much money you spend on something, trying to suddenly make an accurate budget is pretty impossible. For example: we budgeted $100 for gas for two weeks. We have spent $160 on gas. We budgeted $100 for groceries for two weeks. We spent $130. Restaurants? $25, which we spent on one meal at Steak & Shake (granted, we both got combos AND milkshakes).

What I'm saying is...we're out of money. And food. And gas. And we're hungry. I've had ramen for two meals in the past 3 days. Mr. T talks about food constantly, the poor guy. I'm going somewhere with this, I promise. Actually, here we go. I got invited to my sister's house this evening. Mom is in town to babysit, so to pretend like she still loves me, even though I have not spawned any grandbabies yet, I was invited over. For dinner. Yes, please! I told Mr. T about it when I called him on my lunch break. He, alas, has only a frozen dinner to eat today (better than ramen, I say). After I got back to my desk this text conversation happened:

Mr. T: Oh my God everyone at the shop got great food... Urge to kill rising.

Me: Sorry, love! We will have so much delicious food next week. I promise!

Mr. T: I need it.

Me: I love you, my starving man. Maybe I can get leftovers from Sister for you.

Mr. T: Oh yeah I love it when you talk dirty. 

Hopes and Dreams: Day 15

Day 15: If you were an animal, what would you be and why?

Most people would probably assume I'd say "giraffe" but I'm not. So there! SURPRISE!

No wildlife. Death comes too easy. No thank you - I want to be a spoiled little pet, if I'm going to be an animal. Preferably one that lives a fairly long life. Let's see...dog, or cat? Yeah, parrots can live much longer, but...then I'd be a bird. Stuck in a cage all the time. Same goes for turtles. Horses have to stay outside all the time. Or locked in a stall. So, yeah - either a dog or a cat.

Dogs have a pretty cool life... Running, playing, sleeping, eating...I can dig it. But cats can climb things, and that's pretty cool. I don't know that I'd want to poop in a box, though. But having to poop on the side of the road seems pretty awful, too. And then again - most cats never go outside. And really, you shouldn't let your cat out. They're killing all the wildlife. Shame on you! I'll have to pick dog, then. Cats are terrible. Well, cats that go outside are. Mine stay inside, so yay for them. But I wouldn't want to be stuck inside all the time. So, I choose dog. Woof.

Unfriend!

Finding out you've been unfriended can be a little depressing. Most of the time you don't notice, since FB isn't all "HEY! THIS GUY JUST UNFRIENDED YOU! DON'T YOU FEEL LIKE CRAP?!" And it usually only happens when either A) you're really not "friends" anyway, so no hard feelings on either side - or B) you've had a major falling out and now hate each other...unfriending is kind of expected. I've only unfriended people due to B)....twice, I think. One was MC because he's a douche. The other was Mr. T's brother and his brother's girlfriend, because they made a series of poor life choices and I got fed up with it all. (Note: They got very upset with me over this. Weeee....)

But sometimes you think you're friends with someone irl - or maybe not friends, but at least casual acquaintances who will be all "Hey, gurl - how you doin' these days?!?" if you see each other at Starbucks. I assume this is what casual acquaintances do when they bump into each other - I may be wrong. Anyway, you think you're on decent terms with someone, AND you haven't made any questionable life choices lately, so.... "Oh, here's a funny thing that we had a random chat about once - I'm going to go post it on her wall, and maybe invite her over for dinner since I don't want to just be casual acquaintances - I'd rather be frieeeeeeends...." And then....wut? "Add Friend"?? When did this happen?! Check husband's page: "Add Friend"?!?!?! What?!?!

Notice you still have a TON of mutual friends - INCLUDING YOUR HUSBAND. So they didn't unfriend Mr. T....why did they unfriend me?! They had just come over for dinner a month or so ago! There was another couple there - quick, send FB message to the Mrs. in that relationship: "Do you know what's going on?" and.....crickets. We had chatted about a week before, and when I sent her an unrelated message about a month or two later she responded right away. So....she's avoiding answering? Why? Does she know why I'm unfriended?? Does she want me to confront them directly?? What is going on right now?!

You guys....this has really hurt my feelings. And it happened SIX MONTHS AGO. Well, I first found out about it six months ago. I'm not sure when they unfriended me. Maybe it was the picture debacle that caused so much drama with my family? I just don't know. But it makes me a sad panda. SAD PANDA.

Hopes and Dreams: Day 14

Day 14: Describe 5 strengths you have.

1. "We may not have great feats of strength, but we do have great strength of feet!" One of my strengths is almost remembering a movie quote and then deciding to quote it without making sure it's exactly accurate. It add spice to life.
2. I can read pretty stinking fast. Of course, my retention leaves something to be desired. But that just means I can read a book about five times before I get really sick of it. Huzzah!
3. Mr. T says I'm the hottest woman alive. So there. Take that, Heidi Klum!
4. I did something right at some point in my life, because I ended up with Mr. T - probably the only person in the world that thinks I'm the hottest woman in the world. And also the sweetest man alive.
5. I think I'm pretty cool to hang out with. I would assume at least a handful of people agree, because they hang out with me sometimes. So...yay me!

Blogging Rant

There are things that certain blogs do that annoy the piss out of me. I'm not sure if you're aware, but I've kind of been on a DIY kick lately. So I've probably added a couple dozen new blogs to my Google Reader. These are usually lovely women who are (making a living?) blogging about crafts and/or fashion and...whatever. I don't know how all that works - I make no moolah with this little old blog. And I'm okay with that. I'm not a consistent writer with how often I post, what I post about, or how long my posts are.

Anyway - on to the rant. I hate, hate, HATE "more after the jump" or "click here for the rest of the post" showing up in my Google Reader! I guess they do that because they make more money if you physically visit their blog, due to ads and such on the sidebars. But you see, in Google Reader, all the cutsey formatting is stripped away. I don't have to read stuff with your fun little font, on the teal background, with all the pictures of your family in the sidebar. Blech. Plus, it makes it that much harder to not be obviously reading a blog about home design. Black font on white background could be anything! I also have several tech feeds that I follow, and the only way to distinguish between that and info on refinishing cabinets would be pictures. Until I have to go "after the jump" to see the finished product.

The other thing that irritates me is the HUGE FREAKING BANNER IMAGE you have at the top of your blog. I keep my browser shrank down to about 50% of the height of my screen. Your banner image of your cute little kids or whatever the f you have up there should not fill my entire screen!

Alright, I've wandered away from this for about an hour and my rage has dissipated. I'm gonna go ahead and wrap this up. No post discarded! 8}

Hopes and Dreams: Day 13

Day 13: Describe 5 weaknesses you have.

What is this a job interview?

1. I'm too dedicated to my work.

Oh, it's not a job interview? Fine.

1. I'm mean. Like...grumpy and pissy and just...mean. Especially with Mr. T. I upset him a lot. He's overly sensitive and I'm overly critical. It's a terrible cycle. But we're working on it!
2. I'm very easily distracted. Especially in conversations. Especially when you're trying to talk to me while the TV is on. I may have missed my first proposal because of this. THEREWEREOTHERFACTORSALSO.
3. I use all-caps too much when blogging. I've also started using italics a lot. Like...a lot.
4. I say "like" too much. But I think everyone does. Like, totally.
5. I never know if I'm supposed to be serious or not. More often than not...I'm not. I don't like being serious. It runs in my family. Seriously. Go to a funeral on Dad's side of the family. Or Mom's even, to a lesser extent. It freaked Mr. T out not just a little bit.

Hopes and Dreams: Day 12

Day 12: Describe a typical day in your current life.

Oh, boy! Okay, so....

6:15am: SNOOZE
6:25am: SNOOZE
6:35am: Mmmmmmm....debate, debate, debate - sometimes SNOOZE, sometimes not
6:45am: Up by now - let Splinter outside, go upstairs and feed cats, come downstairs, let Splinter in, feed Splinter... Brush teeth, straighten hair, lotion it up, get dressed, mouthwash, tell Mr. T "bye" eighty-bajillion times so he remembers....
7:20am-ish: Get in the PT Cruiser - about one day a week there is an immediate swear because I realize I didn't buy gas the night before so now I have to get some. Then start the miserable drive to work.
7:30am-ish: Get stuck behind some a-hole going 5mph under the speed limit and never be able to get around him until I get into Franklin.
8:05am: Get to work. If I'm in flats I walk up the six flights (144 individual stairs) to our office. If I'm in heels (or lazy) I'll take the elevator.
8:05-8:10am: Get to my desk, tell IT peeps "Good morning!" grab my coffee mug and go to the break room. Coffee pot is probably empty, have to refill it...wait on coffee to brew. Grab my yogurt out of the fridge.
8:20am: Get back to my desk, unlock my computer and turn on my desk light. Mark off the date on my wall calendar, tear off my one-a-day calendar. Check email, Facebook, eat yogurt, drink coffee...try to avoid looking at the clock until at least 10:00am.
8:30am: Look at clock.
8:35am: Look at clock.
8:40am-12:00pm: Either work on work projects or try to keep busy with something until lunch.
12:00pm: Lunch time! Call Mr. T, walk to the break room, microwave a frozen meal, fill up my glass with ice water, eat while reading a book.....enjoy not being in my cubicle for an hour.
1:00pm: Gather all my garbage, throw it away, wash any sliverwear, refill glass, go back to my cubicle.
1:05pm: Pee.
1:10pm: Settle in for more of the same...only now my day is broken up by refilling my glass and peeing.
4:30pm: Get really excited, then watch the clock suddenly stop working properly, so each minute is actually 20.
4:50-something: Say "SOON ENOUGH!" Close all my open windows, lock computer, turn off monitor and desk light, get all my crap together and skidaddle on outta here.
5:00pm: Hate Franklin traffic.
5:30-6:00pm: Get home - fight off dog(s) freaking the f*ck out. Change clothes. Let Splinter outside, feed cats, let Splinter in, feed Splinter.
6:20pm: Debate: eat, watch TV, exercise? (Hint: exercise rarely wins)
9:00pm: Mr. T gets home!!!!!
10:30-11:30pm: Go to bed.

Hopes and Dreams: Day 11

Day 11: Describe 10 pet peeves you have.

1. Rubbing your hands on your leg while riding in a car. This is kind of random and specific, but my sister hates the sound of people chewing on ice for the self-same reason: Mom. She was a school teacher, so we always had to ride with her to school. When Sister was young, Mom chewed ice. When I was young, she rubbed her thigh. Constantly. All the way to school. Maybe she also chewed ice. And maybe she rubbed her thigh when Sister was in the car with her. But we noticed what we noticed and now we have serious psychological...quirks.
2. Not refilling the coffee pot when you get the last cup of coffee out of it. Anyone who drinks coffee and has worked in an office has this one.
3. Not cleaning out the coffee grounds after a pot of coffee has been brewed. Again, this is probably a pretty common one.
4. People who drive at (and especially under) the speed limit on the two-lane road I have to drive down to get to and from work every day.
5. People who don't use blinkers/headlights properly.
6. People who go the speed limit in the fast lane on the interstate and refuse to get over, even when there is no traffic in the right lane(s).
7. People who tailgate me when I'm at the end of a long line of traffic and have no way to do anything about it.
8. Any time I hear someone call a tattoo a "tat" or say they want to "get some ink" or anything else along those lines. tattoo - tattoo machine - tattoo shop - tattoo artist
9. Stereotyping of any sort. Unless it's me and for fun. 8P
10. People who can't come up with the last thing to add to a list of things, so they just ramble for a bit and hope no one notices. This one may just be me, though.

Hopes and Dreams: Day 10

Day 10: Describe your most embarrassing moment.

Eh, what do I do that isn't embarrassing. But, thanks to an outing for Miss C's birthday back in February......I'm going to say Drunk Mrs. Wilson in Public is my most embarrassing moment. There isn't one singular moment I can am willing to tell you. Just know - it's embarrassing. The only good thing about it is that I never remember what I do when I'm drunk. Yay, faulty memory!

Hopes and Dreams: Day 9

Day 9: List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.

Blah...this one is lame! Do I have to do it?

1. Your mom.
2. Your mom.
3. Your mom.
4. Your mom.
5. Your mom.
6. Your mom.
7. Your mom.
8. Your dad! SICK BURN.
9. Your mom.
10. Your mom.

Hopes and Dreams: Day 8

Day 8: What are 5 passions you have?

1. Abortions. They are almost always bad. But, like any hot-button issue, lots of gray areas up in here: rape/incest; the baby and/or the mother's life is at risk. Actually....that's just two, isn't it? So not lots of gray areas...two gray areas. Well, maybe the morning-after pill. Because I never thought of that as "abortion" until the little mini-drama centered around Hobby Lobby... But, yeah - if you're dumb and get knocked up you shouldn't be allowed to run out and "fix it" with a quick and easy abortion. A fetus is a human. life. and you're not going to change my mind on that.
2. Adoption. I want to adopt. I think it's important for people who are able to adopt. I had a boyfriend who said he wouldn't adopt because he knew he wouldn't love an adopted child as much as his own. Good grief - that guy was a total d-bag. I have no idea why I stayed with him. He also told me it was almost a certainty that he would cheat on me and told me not to hate him if we "accidentally" had sex one night. But back to adoption. Children in foreign countries obviously need it, but there are so many children here in the US that need a family, too. So - adopt. 
3. Having children. Good grief, my BC must be running out. Too much kid talk! But I do want to have a child of my own. At least one, maybe two. No more than that, though. Sheese. Some people (we like to call them a**holes) call women with children (usually lots of kids - think 5 or 6) "breeders" and say that purposefully giving birth to a child is selfish. I don't know that I agree. Maybe because I want to have kids. :) But if you really think giving birth is so bad, and selfish...then adopt a kid who was unwanted.
4. Adopting shelter dogs. Look - one not about kids!!! This is something that I never gave much thought until recently. But buying dogs from breeders is just....idiotic. Mr. T and I went to the local shelter to adopt our dog and there were so. many. dogs there wanting love! All shapes, sizes, ages, breeds, temperaments.... And so many of them are put to sleep. Because you (yes YOU) went to a breeder. So don't talk to me about having to "save up" for a dog. And if you desperately, absolutely HAVE. TO. HAVE. a specific breed, I assure you you can find a dog of that breed in a shelter. And if you want a purebred dog so you can breed your dog. Well, then. Get the f*ck out of my life, because you're an idiot.
5. DIY/environmentally friendly products. Another thing I've just recently gotten into...DIY. Guys - this planet is falling apart. And it's our fault. Good reason not to spawn more earth-killing humans, I guess... :) I think it's important to do everything we can to fix what we're messing up. Grow your own vegetables, make your own cleaning supplies, don't drive a Hummer. Plus, you know, a billion other things. It's not hard! I've already made my own laundry detergent that is probably going to last us about a decade, made some dish detergent (that we've just started to use, look for updates soon!), and switched over to homemade face wash. I can't wait to do more homemade cleaning solutions - body wash, shampoo, lotion, various cleaning supplies....the possibilities are endless! Go green! 8}

Hopes and Dreams: Day 7

Day 7: What is your dream job, and why?

Hmmm... I think my current job is pretty sweet. I love the people I work with, I like the work I do....the commute kind of sucks. Being able to work from home one day a week would be the bee's knees. Maybe one day I can convince my boss. 8} But, yeah. All-in-all I really like my job.

Now, is it my dream job? Eh...probably not. A few things that would be cool: 1) If I could make a living off of this blog. But I think that would be super stressful. Always having to stay interesting, and relevant. I'd probably have to talk to people a lot. That would suck. And considering about five people read it currently, I doubt it's ever gonna happen. 2) Stay at home mom? I think that'd be pretty sweet. Keep the house clean, cook meals, take a walk during lunch time every day with a dog and/or kid... Yeah, I think that'd be cool. But I'm married to a tattoo artist. Ain't gonna happen. If anything he's going to be more of a stay at home parent than I am, since he won't need to go in to work until noon or later. And I wouldn't be good at any of the things stay at home moms do to bring money in - crafts, babysitting, cooking....whatever else. I'd probably be the terrible kind that wears sweats all the time and plays FB games 24/7 while the house falls apart and we eat pizza every night. At least I'm honest! 3) Mr. T opens his own shop and I help him run it. This one is the most likely to happen, but also the most terrifying. When you run your own business you're in charge of everything: insurance, taxes, employees.... Egads - that's lots of responsibilities! But it would be cool. We'd have the same hours. We'd get to see each other at work. But we'd be doing very different jobs so it's not like we'd be constantly together. The kids could hang out at the shop....I think it'd be kind of cool to grow up in a tattoo shop. 8} But that's just me.

So, yeah. There you go!

Hopes and Dreams: Day 6

Day 6: What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?

Sigh...the first thing that popped in my head was "a cock."

Honestly....nothing too terrible has happened to me. Mom has been really sick several times in her life, but not really since I've been aware enough to be impacted. When my grandparents' passed away unexpectedly...that kind of sucked. I think about it a lot and....yeah, it sucked. My dad's parents both had long, drawn-out sicknesses that made their deaths more expected, but made it way more painful to be around them at the end. So...I dunno. People dying sucks. School was kind of miserable, too. Especially grad school. But I also had a lot of fun. But, yeah....I would say the hardest thing I've ever experienced is cock. Final answer.

DIY Body Wash and Lotion

I'm moving on to the next car on the DIY crazy train. I've already made my own face wash and dish detergent (and laundry detergent, but I've never made a blog post about that one). I was going to do shampoo/conditioner next (it's just baking soda for shampoo and cider vinegar for conditioner), but since I have 1/3 of the hair I should I don't think I'm ever going to run out of shampoo/conditioner! But I am almost out of both body wash AND lotion! I've mentioned it before, but I've been using the same lotion for nearly a decade. It's so cheap! But...look at this! They're not terrible scores, but DIY could be so much better! Plus, I've drank the Kool-Aid and there's no going back now....

My friend Banana (needs a new nickname) posted a link to 101 Uses for Coconut Oil on my wall not too long ago. I got her a ticket on the train, too. ;) She's done...deodorant, I think? And something else. My memory, it's weak. I'm not up for homemade deodorant, though. At least not yet. I think that will be my final experience. I just...hate sweaty, stinky arm pits! And I love my deodorant. 8} Of course, they say it causes Alzheimer's and all sorts of terrible things. So maybe one day...if everything else works out.

Anyway! Now that we're on this Dave Ramsey budget, I have to plan out my purchases and look for recipes that have repeating ingredients. I found this lotion that only has 3 ingredients (cocoa butter, aloe vera gel, and sesame oil). I already own the oil for my face wash, so zing! There is also this sugar scrub on that same site. Ingredients: coconut oil, brown sugar, and vanilla extract. We already own brown sugar, so zing! And I feel like the vanilla extract is optional, for scent. So I'll probably skip on that, if it comes down to it. I also found this recipe for lotion and this one for lotion bars, but they seem a bit more complicated and require more ingredients. None of which I own. So maybe next time...

The only thing I'm struggling with is body wash. I *think* I'm going to go with this recipe. It has a lot of ingredients, but most of them are optional. Required ingredients: water, citric acid, coconut oil, honey, castile soap, and guar gum. She infused oatmeal and rosemary to "soothe and tone" whatever the f that means. And all three of the recipes have an option for essential oils, which just add scent. They are also supposed to be good for you and different ones do different things. So that's another thing that, if I have any money left over I might purchase something. I'm only getting $30 in pocket money this month (curse you, Dave Ramsey!!) so I'm not sure how much of this I'll be able to do. Let's do a price breakdown, shall we?

Ingredients Needed:

• 3/4 cup coconut oil
• 1 cup brown sugar
• 1/2 cup cocoa butter - I think I can replace this with coconut oil
• 1/2 cup aloe vera gel
• 3/4 cup sesame seed oil
• 1 tsp citric acid
• 1 Tbsp honey - I think we own some honey, but I need to double-check
• 1 1/2 cup liquid castile soap
• 1 tsp guar gum

Coconut Oil:
I'll need about 1 1/4 cups (12 oz.) of this total. On this site I can get 32 oz. (four cups) for about $15. Which is half my budget, but that store supports family farms in the Philippines! (Say that five times fast.) And you get this book full of recipes that use coconut oil. (I think all for cooking, but whatever. I guess I can eat it, too...) I checked Amazon and you can't really get 32 oz. for much cheaper.
Total Price: $15.00
Sigh....this has gotten a bit too expensive. I'm going to have to drop down to the 16 oz. one for $8. That will give me 2 cups, which will have to do. I just can't spend half my budget on coconut oil!
Total Price: $8.00

Brown Sugar:
I'll need a cup of this. I already own it, both dark and light brown sugar. I'll probably do half of one and half of the other, so I still have a little of both left for cooking.
Total Price: $8.00

Aloe Vera Gel:
I'll need 1/2 a cup of this. Found a 32 oz container of it on Amazon for about $7.50. Interesting thing I learned just now - you can eat aloe vera! I always just put it on my skin for sunburns and cuts...THE MORE YOU KNOW. Still not sure I'll eat any...
Total Price: $15.50 (aaaaand...I'm almost out of money. 8P)

Sesame Seed Oil:
I'll need 3/4 cup of this. I already own a big ol' bottle of it for my face wash, so it's FREE!
Total Price: $15.50

Citric Acid:
I only need a teaspoon of this, and she said it's to prevent bacterial growth in the body wash. None of the other recipes I found called for this, so I may not include it. I only have $6 left!! Yeah...I'm not finding it for very cheap on Amazon, soooo....imma pass. If I get some funky bacterial growth I'll call it a life lesson learned and do better next time. 8P
Total Price: $15.50

Honey:
I'm pretty sure we already own some honey. At any rate, she doesn't explain why she put honey in the body wash...I think it may just be for the scent. So if we don't have any, I won't worry about it.
Total Price: $15.50

Castile Soap:
I'll need 1 1/2 cup, or 12 oz. of this bad boy. Budget panic!! I found a two-pack of 32 oz. that only costs $1 more than a single bottle of the self-same stuff. Strange... But it's still going to be $19!! There is this stuff which has citric acid in it already. So that would make my not buying it more justified. Everything I saw said to use Dr. Bronner's, though. And this is Dr. Wood's. The reviews are "meh" on it. Dr. Bronner's is 4.6 out of 80+ reviews, while Dr. Wood's has 4.2 with 14 reviews. But...it's only $5, so I think I'm going to have to take it. Budgets!!
Total Price: $20.50

Guar Gum:
I did some research, and guar gum is just a thickening agent. So I can replace the 1 teaspoon of it with about 800 teaspoons of flour and get the same result. 8} You need 8x the amount of corn starch to replace guar gum, and you to use a bit more flour than asked for to replace corn starch. (I have never been able to find corn starch!!) So let's say......12 teaspoons? That's 4 tablespoons. So 4 tablespoons of flour, which I own. Bam! Done!
Total Price: $20.50

*whew! I think that'll have to do. I had to get half as much coconut oil as I wanted, and a cheaper brand (and half as much) of the castile soap as I wanted....but I stayed in budget! Even with S&H! (I hope...) I won't really be able to buy anything else fun this month, but what can you do? DIY is a harsh mistress.

Update with S&H:
Price for purchases from Amazon: $22
Price for coconut oil: $15.50

Grand Total: $37.50



Balls.






ALRIGHT. So screw you, local Philippine farmers! I'm going to buy THIS coconut oil off of Amazon for $7.30 (plus shipping)!! THAT will put my total Amazon order....to $34.37. Mother. Of. Pearl. It's impossible! It's just...impossible.

Okay, okay - total idea redo.

I'm still going to make the scrub, because it's only coconut oil and brown sugar. Instead of making lotion, I'm just going to rub coconut oil on me. What?? Lots of people do it! Don't judge!! And I'll make the same body wash. If I go back to the original store for coconut oil, it will be $15.50 with S&H. Then the only thing I'll need to buy from Amazon is the castile soap (does this even make sense anymore?) and the cheap bottle of that + S&H will be $8.66. $24.16! BAM! Done.

I'm exhausted.


Now, of course, I can't order any of this until after my paycheck on the 15th (thanks, Dave Ramsey), so God knows what will happen to all the prices by then. But! For now...this is my plan. 8P I need to go take a nap now.

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God, I love Jennifer Lawrence.

Hopes and Dreams: Day 5

Day 5: What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?

1. Mr. T, all the way.
2. Fridays......when the clock hits 4:30. Best. Feeling. Ever.
3. When one of the animals in the house does something stupid and hilarious.
4. Becoming more adult-like every day. It's so weird!

Hopes and Dreams: Day 4

Day 4: List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.

Geeze.... What grade was I in when I was 16? Eh - I'll generalize to high school me, mmkay?

1. GET YOUR DRIVER'S PERMIT. PRACTICE DRIVING. GET YOUR DRIVER'S LICENSE. Dummy. It's embarrassing to be a senior and take driver's ed. to actually learn how to drive and not just as an easy A.
2. Don't obsess over anyone at your high school. All those guys are dummies and every guy you interact with in college will be an improvement.
3. Guys will like you. Almost immediately. Seriously, what's wrong with the local boys? Idiots.
4. Stop being so weird and quiet. You're very much weird and loud, somewhere in there. Let it blossom.
5. Maybe get more interested in how computers work. You're going to somehow end up dealing with them for a living.
6. Don't be so full of yourself, you pretentious little weirdo. 
7. Practice the clarinet more. Eh, actually that doesn't really matter. Carry on, you lazy bastard.
8. Don't cute all your hair off for Senior pictures. Bad things will happen. Trust me. Just...don't.
9. Maybe try makeup out. Don't go crazy or anything, but at least master eye liner. When a female is in her mid-twenties she should be able to put eyeliner on in under 20 minutes and without swearing a lot.
10. Listen to a wider variety of music. Don't limit yourself to Country and Christian....rock? pop? Whatever it is you listen to.

Hopes and Dreams: Day 3

Day 3: Describe your relationship with your parents.

Eh...

I'd say it's pretty good. I'm definitely the black sheep of the family, and we've had some majorly rocky moments...but I haven't been disowned or had the desire to scream "IhateyouIhateyouIhateyou!" at them. So there's that. They're definitely not fans of my tattoos, or hairstyle choices. When Mom saw a liquor store purchase on my bank statement she flipped. her. lid. You know that weird scream-crying that only happens in movies? Oh that happened IRL. She told me it hurt worse than when her parents died in a car accident a few months prior (which, I feel, isn't true - Mom is a bit dramatic - but...maybe) and I should've just stabbed her in the back. We hide Mr. T's tobacco-stick addiction from them. Oh! Mom saw my hookah once, and tried to take it away from me. She said she would "give it back" which....made no sense. I was in my 20s at the time. I was like...what, you'll give it back when I turn 18?! I don't understand...

So, yeah - I'd say I've definitely caused more trouble for them than my brother or sister. But only because my parents' world is very (very) black and white, and Mr. T and I live in fifty shades of gray (snicker). Nothing in our world is as clear and simple as everything in my parents'. But they love me, and I love them. We've worked out a decent arrangement where we don't discuss anything that will upset them (aka - Mom). People are all "You're a married adult - don't hide your tattoos/drinking/etc. from your parents." and to them I saw "Are you a member of my family? No? Then stfu. This works for us."

Hopes and Dreams: Day 2

Day 2: Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.

1. Getting popped with towels/rubber bands.
• I already mentioned this one in my first "Hopes and Dreams" post...but I didn't explain why I have this fear. And honestly...I don't know. I just hate hate hate it. I freak the f out if you even act like you're going to pop me. And if you do, insta-pissed. I think it only happened in the past few years...like since college. I don't remember always being terrified. REPRESSED MEMORIES.
2. Hmmm...spiders, I guess.
• I kind of inherited this fear from my sister. When she was little one of those wolf spiders ran across her back at a swimming pool, so she's been deathly afraid of them ever since. I think growing up around her terror caused me to be afraid of them, because no spider has ever done anything to bother me.
3. Getting cancer and/or Alzheimer's.
• Yeah, it's scary. I'm super terrified of this. Any time I read about someone with cancer, or Alzheimer's...or someone on a TV show/movie has it...I get this panicked, tight feeling in my chest. They can happen to anyone and (at least with cancer) at any time in your life. Especially since Mr. T SMOKES - I can't express how terrified I am that he's going to die too soon. It drives me insane that he isn't trying harder to quit. Guys, seriously - don't. smoke. It's the most idiotic thing a human being can do. Bah!

Hopes and Dreams: Day 1

Day 1: List 20 random facts about yourself.

1. I have ten tattoos.
2. I'm terrified of getting popped with rubber bands or wet towels.
3. I'm kind of bummed this is the first day. I hate doing these things.
4. We have five adults, a one-year-old, three dogs, two cats, two snakes, and a bearded dragon living in our house.
5. I have so many idea of things to do in our house...I don't know where I'll find the time, money, or skill set to get any of them done. It's very overwhelming.
6. Mr. T is the coolest dude I know and I'm very, very happy to be married to him. Even if sometimes I'm bad at acting like it.
7. I just had a pretty impressive cold chill and almost hurt my neck.
8. My back is super effed up, so I go to the chiropractor. It's the greatest thing ever.
9. I haven't even made it to 10 and I'm out of ideas.
10. Ummm... I pee in the shower to conserve water.
11. I've been using the same lotion for nearly a decade.
12. I've been a college graduate (for the 2nd time) for nearly a year now, and don't feel any closer to being an adult than I did when I was in school.
13. Owning a house is one of the most terrifying things ever.
14. I wish I could draw, and it drives me crazy that Mr. T is so...procrastinate-y about it. I would draw all the d*mn time if my drawings turned out the way his do!!
15. Every scented thing I buy...lotion, deodorant, body wash, etc....as soon as I start using it I start hating the smell. No matter how good it smelled in the store.
16. I really have to pee right now.
17. I just got up and peed. You never would have known if I hadn't told you.
18. Sometimes I wish I could make a living off of my blog. Then I realize how stressful that would be.
19. A few of my favorite bloggers have written books, and it makes me hate them, because then they stop blogging. Or only blog about their books. You're losing fans, people!! Well, a fan, at least.
20. Sometimes I'm terrified to have children, because of how totally f'd this world is.