November 2, 2011

Why?

Apparently the professors are talking about me. One of them asked MC (another graduate student) why I was getting my Master's degree. Now, it could have been an innocent question, and that's how MC took it - or at least that's how he is telling me to take it - but I feel like it's as if the professors are saying "What is she doing here?" and it's making me ask the same question.

I hate to sound like a broken record, but I don't like computer science. It was interesting the first 3 or 4 classes, then got tolerable, then got annoying, and now I just straight up dislike it. So why, why, why did I come back for another degree in it?!

Pa-tooey! I spit on you, computer science!

Hopefully this post won't cost me a job later on down the road, but if you can't be honest, what can you be?  My main life goal is to get a job that has nothing to do with any of this. Is that allowed?

I have to admit, I've been thinking a lot about *gasp* teaching. Don't tell my mother. I mean...what if I could get a job teaching at a community college? Something like the 1150 classes I've been teaching? Is that a possibility? Maybe?

I have got to get over this funk. It's like the dark side that comes after senior-itis. I'm not just over school, I'm over my chosen career path entirely.